Closer and closer

Every time I breathe New York gets closer.  In just a little over a day I will begin my journey, so exciting.  The past couple days I have had a lot of time to reflect.  Here at Caswell the summer season is starting off beautifully with the arrival of the 2009 summer staffers, and the first youth week starting wednesday.  They are so excited and it is refreshing to watch.  I am so pumped about summer project but part of my heart is aching to remain at Caswell.  It is funny how you pay closer attention to things when you are about to leave a place.  Sounds, smells, everything.  I was sitting at Vespers tonight (which happens to be my favorite place in the world...yep the entire world) and its like God just started dealing with me.  I need to let go of a lot of things, and truthfully lay down some burdens that are just too much for me to handle.  I feel like every time my brokenness seems like its about to consume my life, that is when God is about to do some amazing work in my life.  While I can't explain a lot of the things that are going on in my heart right now, I can explain that God is in control...and he is about to teach me something amazing. 

For the past couple weeks a certain passage has kept coming to my mind, and is one I plan on sharing with the summer staff tomorrow at breakfast.  "I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."(philipians 1:3-6) That last part gives me so much encouragement.  He has started something and he is going to see me through!